My God Is Patient And Kind
September 1, 2021·Carolina Majors
I remember when I was living in Russia and had what I considered my first major Christian break up. I was devasted, to say the least. I didn’t understand why God would ask me to break up with someone I was supposed to marry, while barely arriving in a new country where I had no family or friends to depend on for moral support. I felt depression start to set in like I had never experienced before. In heartache, I cried myself to sleep every night for about a month. I became so desperate. You would think that from the very beginning I would have gone to God, but isn’t it like us to sometimes run to other things before going to God or allowing our sorrow to overtake us? I was talking to God the whole time — emphasis on talking to God, not listening or reading God’s Word, like my soul needed.
Psalm 119:92-93 says, “If Your law had not been my delight, then I would have perished in my affliction. I will never forget Your precepts, for by them You have revived me.”
During his most difficult times, the Psalmist found delight in the Word of God (meaning pleasure, joy, or gratification), which brought life to his soul and revived him to keep going. The affliction he felt was offset by the Word of our mighty God. It’s the delight he found in the Word that got him through life’s difficult seasons.
I can tell you, the only thing that got me out of bed every day, and got me through my lonely nights and sorrow, was picking up my Bible every day. I would open it and find my soul being fed, and the overwhelming feelings I found myself in before, were being replaced by the delight I found in the great love my Father had for me, which I found in His Word. After that, I couldn’t do anything, and didn’t want to do anything, but read God’s Word. It was like my body was screaming, “I need more food, I need life to be revived back in me.” My prayers turned into times of not just praying, but listening to God; they turned into thankfulness, prayers of saying to God, “I still don’t understand, but it is well with my soul and I trust You, even if I don’t understand, and I thank You for getting me through this and out of this.
Church, wherever you’re at, whatever you might be going through or talking to God about in anger, or in those times when you don’t understand, may I challenge you to seek the Lord? Pray and listen and make the Word of God your top priority! Seek wisdom, understanding, and direction from the Word of God. It will get you through your affliction with His strength alone! He can do it. Delight in His Word to You.
Pastor Carolina Majors
